A Letter to my Blog

Hello dearest!

Can I still call you mine? Do I still have the authority to pour my crazy rambling thoughts to you? The last time did I made a decent post here was summer. And it's really been quite a long time my dear. Sorry for almost abandoning you and I miss you. You know that I'm gone for several months for my review classes. And detaching myself to you was one of those things that I had to give up temporarily. Little sacrifices to meet the word 'FOCUS'. Chos! But now that I'm back and my name is now three letters longer, we can talk more often. Hopefully! I will share you my daily bread. Tehee. Embrace me now, blog! <insert a BIG BIG smile here.> HAHA.

After a long term of idleness, things has drastically change. For a span of six months, lot of things had happened. I did learn new things. Everything's new. I met new amazing people from Metro whom added some spice on my not-so-boring-review-days. I miss them already anyways. And of course including my college friends as well who became my second family during our review. Living under the same roof made me know them very well. I owe them a lot, like really. Where I thought leaving out of your comfort zone was the hardest but with these people having around me never made me feel that I'm in solitude. I miss those days of tears and laughter. Aw. So, here's a BEAR HUG for you, friends!

I become more grown person. I have known myself more than I think I know who I am. And I praise the Almighty for all of those blessings I received. Alhamdulillah! I love Him to infinity and beyond. :***

Anyhow, this space wouldn't be enough to express how delighted I am for this wonderful things God has bestowed upon me. And on how puzzled I am of what will be going to happen next in my life after becoming a CPA. I'm still at awe but more to that I'm also clueless. Tsss. Nonetheless, for now, I'm happy that I'm writing you again. Thank you for being one of my sources of entertainment though I'm not a good writer. Thank youuuuuu! :'''''>

Until next time, dear.

Love always,

Annadear

*Parang Charlie of The Perks of Being A Wallflower lang ang peg noh. (laughs) 

A Song For Mama

We don't need a particular day for us to make our mother feel they're special. Everyday is a mother's day. So, yea, I love my Mamang forever and always. I know she knew it and I don't have to express it verbally. Hahaha! Being vocal and mushy seems to be the hardest actions on earth. lol. Personally, I have to gain more guts to do such. But hey, saying it while doing it is the sweetest. So, don't hesitate! Tehee. 

Awhile ago, while we are in the middle of our conversation with mom and having our merienda, my lil sis suddenly yelled and sang the line "Mama! Mama you know I love you". Aww. She's got to be the sweetest among us seven, really. And mamang reacted as if she haven't heard anything. Chos! If I know her heart is bouncing and chilling to the bones. Nyehehehe! 

So, here's A Song for Mama by Boyzone. I have always dedicated this song to my mom. Mamang, you're the best, as always! Thank you for everything. I couldn't ask for more. Alhamdulillah. Tehee! 

You taught me everything 

And everything you've given me 

I'll always keep it inside 

You're the driving force in my life, yeah 

There isn't anything 

Or anyone that I could be 

And it just wouldn't feel right 

If I didn't have you by my side 

You were there for me to love and care for me 

When skies were grey 

Whenever I was down 

You were always there to comfort me 

And no one else can be what you have been to me 

You will always be 

You will always be the girl in my life for all times 

Mama, mama you know I love you 

Ooh you know I love you 

Mama, mama you're the queen of my heart 

Your love is like 

Tears from the stars (yes it is) 

Mama, I just want you to know 

Lovin' you is like food to my soul 

Yes it is, yes it is (ooh), yes it is, yes it is, yes it is 

You're always down for me 

Have always been around for me even when I was bad 

You showed me right from my wrong 

And you took up for me 

When everyone was downin' me 

You always did understand 

You gave me strength to go on 

There was so many times 

Looking back when I was so afraid 

And then you'd come to me 

And say to me I could face anything 

And no one else can do 

What you have done for me 

You'll always be 

You will always be the girl in my life 

Never gonna go a day without you 

Fills me up just thinking about you 

Could never go a day without my mama 

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Friends, I would like to thank your mom also for bringing you into this world or else I wouldn't have known someone like you. Chooos. Extend my warm hugs for her. Love love love. :)))

Your mother is special every single day. So spoil her, celebrate her & make her smile as often as you can. Not just ONE day in the year! @IslamSpeaks

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LOVELY ADVICE

Good morning homies and fellas! Let me share you some pretty good advices taught to us by our boss during our OJT. I hope it will also help you to have the better positive outlook in life. Tehee. Blessed day ahead. ^^,

HEALTH

• Drink plenty of water.                                                                           
• Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
• Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
• Live with the 3 E’s - Energy, Enthusiasm and Empathy
• Play more games.
• Read more books than you did in 2011.
• Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
• Sleep for 7 hours.
• Take a 10-30 minutes walk daily. And while you walk, smile.

PERSONALITY

• Don’t compare your life to others. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
• Don’t have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
• Don’t over do. Keep your limits.
• Don’t take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
• Don’t waste your precious energy on gossip.
• Dream more while you are awake.
• Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
• Forget issues of the past. Don’t remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your present happiness.
• Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don’t hate others.
• Make peace with your past so it won’t spoil the present.
• No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
• Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
• Smile and laugh more.
• You don’t have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.

SOCIETY

• Call your family often.
• Each day give something good to others.
• Forgive everyone for everything.
• Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
• Try to make at least three people smile each day.
• What other people think of you is none of your business.
• Your job won’t take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.

LIFE

• Do the right thing!
• Get rid of anything that isn’t useful, beautiful or joyful.
• However good or bad a situation is, it will change. 
• No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
• The best is yet to come.
• Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.

Next to You

"Maybe we're friends, maybe we're more, maybe it's just my imagination..."

Last night, I forgot to turn off my player and then I wake up from a very short nap hearing this line and I was like augh! THIS! It's funny how a certain song could describe how do you feel at once. It's funny how it drives your mind to think of those things that shouldn't be ponder on. It's funny how it tells you that you're not alone and that there's someone out there sharing the same sentiments with you. And what's more funnier, is on how it pushes me to write something tonight. But I warn you, it's nonsense! You may now close your tab or you may just bear with me if you want! LOL

Uhmmmm! Are you up for another drama? Just tonight. Let me express some of my thoughts that is running on my mind right now. I've always thought of it many times though I have tried setting it aside and trash them away but it keeps on flashing back especially when I'm alone. Just so I want to put them into words so I could release myself from doubts or whatsoever. Or perhaps, it may lessen the pain in my chest.

Oops! Pain? Did I just say that?

It's too awkward when somebody will ask me "how's us is going?". I don't even know how to react when my friends used to tease me over him. I admit most of the time kinikilig ako siyempre crush ko yon e. Lame! How to respond when there's nothing going around with us. Or maybe I should answer them with 'maybe we're friends, maybe we're more or maybe it's just my imagination'. I don't want to be stuck at this so called 'friend zone' but I guess I'm almost there. *sobs* :''/

Sometimes he's too sweet that it makes me go crazy all over again. Sometimes he's too snob that it pisses me off. But most of the time he's too idle that I don't feel his presence anymore. Until I get used to this kind of cycle. When he's around, I'm happy. When he's not, K! Fine. HAHAHA! Maybe I expect a lot from him on which I should not. I'm not hurting anyway, just a little pain. Na-immune na siguro. If you only know how much I want to end this mystery.Weeeh!

I've been asking myself are we really special for each other? Or was it just me having special feelings over him? Then, I asked a friend last night, and to his point of view, he said, yes! Sighs! There are times naman talaga that he attempts to confess his feelings for me but I only replied him with a joke. It's not that I don't like it, but NO! I have a very deep reasons. Nevertheless, rest assured to him that I'll be right here, next to you.  Tehee! However, no matter how we like it to be more than what we are now, we can't never be. As in, NEVER! And that is the sad thing about love. So, if I were you, believe in what GOD's plan for you. He's still drafting the best love story you could ever have. Never rush into love. They will come into perfect timing. <^.^>

"It's hard to run from a feeling that haunts you every now and then. It is painful to tell your heart that you don't need it, you keep on pretending that you are better to be alone when in fact you feel so empty. But why take chances if you see no hope? Why try if there's nothing to win? For sometimes it pays to wait...never hurry! Let infatuation die in a natural death... and give birth to a true love when it's time."

Now, I'm trying to escape this misery, maybe it was just a wishful thinking. Hihi. Anyhoos, my drama is over! You can breathe now! And forget about this. I hope I didn't annoyed you or what. Tss.

Good good morneeeeen! ♥♥♥

I tweeted this right after I wake up this morning! ☺

Hey hey hey! I'm feeling good vibes today. I hope you all feel the same too. I don't know why. It's as if I am in love though it's not. Choos lang. But this kind of feeling, pooof (Heaven!). I wanted to be like this forever, feeling inspired.  Oh my dear motivation, please stay with me everyday. Yay! Alhamdulillah! ☺

Shout out to my friends; Just so you know, I miss you all to bits. I hope to see you all soon before I hibernate. Keep in touch ha. I love you all a bunch! :-))) 

♥♥♥

Nothing's Gonna Stop Us Now

Finally, one of my superfriends, Gaw (the barkada used to call him that way), is officially married. The ceremony was held on last Saturday at Xavier Sports and Country Club, CDO. 

Just so I thought I could bring myself to this precious event but I failed. As in, I was too excited pa naman. My imaginations over the wedding and of what will happened to our CDO getaway are overflowing. lol. The Avengers, NBI clearance, Koresco Hotel, date with some good friends and the like. But but but it did only appears as air and blown away. It all ended up to nothing due to some unbeatable reasons. Sabaaaar! Ugh!

My friends did deliver at home this invitation with my name on it for the sake lang talaga na payagan ako. Nagpaka-effort pa sila ng bongga. They made mention a lot of convincing reasons para lang makasama ako like girequest ako ni gaw, all expense paid and papakantahin pa daw ako sa wedding. Chos lang. But naaah! Reject. Reject. Reject. I  just feel so guilty. ;-((( 

Pinayagan ako actually, it's just so happened na may family outing kami on the same day. And I can refuse not to because my cousins from Manila, who came to visit here in province, will return on Monday (Pero hindi din natuloy). And very rare lang ang ganitong event sa family. So, what more else is my choice? Blood is always thicker than water. Tsaaar! But still I feel envious, Hahaha! Pero okay lang, if I haven't join my family then I will never learn how to swim beyond 5 ft. And that is something to be proud of. Yesyesyes! I want more. Ang babaw ko lang. HAHAHA.

And I've already seen some of their photos in facebook! Dang! And I was like whoa! Goosebumps. Kinasal na talaga sila. Nanaw! Too sad that I was not able to witnessed how this two young lovers take a vow for their love forever. Too sad that I didn't see how happy the couple were. Too sad that I haven't captured their smiles with their bonggacious gown and suit. Too sad that I was not able to serenade them with their favorite song 'Nothing Gonna Stup Us Now' (Chos lang! KM. Hahahaha!). And of course, too sad that I wasn't able to tease my guy friends for being the best man and groom's men. Haha! So sad, really sad! Chos! Aw.

Anyhow, best wishes for this duo. May they live a very happy and healthy relationship with fear in God. As the song says, "And we can build this dream together, standing strong forever. Nothing's gonna stop us now. And if this world runs out of lovers, we'll still have each other." I really hope you could be the lovers as describe in the song. No one will stop you and you could make it heart to heart. Ayeee. Kinilig na tuloy ako. Gosh! ♥♥♥

With Ma'am Noro, Binx and Jamjam! 

All MSU-ISED-SHS alumni, MSU-CBAA product

and soon to be all CPAs just like the girl beside us, our mentor. Ayee!

 ♥♥♥

Nakita ko lang 'tong pic na 'to from Ma'am's Album. Hihi

So, I grabbed it for remembrance. :p

 ♥♥♥

And because I'll miss my room for this coming several months. Sad. :'((

Please take care of my room while I'm away. Kahit burara ako, mahal ko din yan. Nyahaha! Oh, my crib, I'll miss you. T_T

Pan'kaw (Surprise) Party! ;p

A very super impulsive advance surprise birthday bash for our dear friend Habib. Wonder why so advance? Wula. Trip lang. Excited. Di. Joke lang. Anubeh. Dami kong satsat. Ah e kasi baka di na kami magkita-kita on his birthday. Ganun? Napredict agad-agad. K. Enough. I'm talking non-sense here. He's turning 22 on the 27th. So, advance Hopya Burthdai Beyb! :p

Anyway, we never planned for this. So, this was really a surprise party dahil pati kami mismo e nasurprisa sa mga pinagkakagawa namin. Nyahahaha. Who would ever thought that a plain ordinary day will turned out to be a blast? THIS. As in. Palibhasa master na namin ang pagsiset-up ng surprises kaya di naging mahirap. Hahahaa! 

That day, we diverse like ninja. HAHAHA. Ambilis. Madam, binx and cao bought for the gift. I and janine for the cake and balloons. The rest of the gang prepare for the food. So, there! Everything was all set and done.  Parteh-parteh! :""">

And yes, Beyb was really surprised like whooaaaa! How did you do this? lol. I can see the light in his face with matching of a big big smile. Teheee!

Photoshoot kunohay!
Credits to the white-painted wall of Binx's House
At nagmistulang studio ang aming piksyooors!
Spot your beautiful pose and
wacky faces all the way.

Oh well! I am so lucky to say that I've got the sweetest, wackiest, silliest, craziest and lahat lahat na ng '-iest' friends on earth. I love you a bunch Superfriends. *Bear hugs*. :-)))

Ang kyoooooot nito, kwela!
Spell, HAPPINESS!






.04/16/12.

At last, we got to meet again!

A one-day date with some of my high school classmates!
L-R: Jamjam, Ako, Chiqui, Sinan, Matter and Aiya.

Welcome Home Aiya and Chiqui! ☺
Thank you Aiya for the treat. Hihihi
Gluttony much @ Jecos and DR. Yay!




.04/03/12.

Torch Parade

It has always been a tradition in the University to gather several events for the graduates every after the class semester. One of these is the Torch Parade, where the Student Council is the planner of the program. Usually, they will prepare for a cheering competition among colleges which refer to as the 'Sigaw-kalye', the main highlight of the event, and then of course  torch parade as the name describes. lol. They would also set up for a fireworks display, mini disco-like party, and hire a singers/band to make the stage alive. Hahaha. 

Anyways, I haven't told you that our batch name is Titans. Others don't like it kasi overused na daw. It's okay with me naman, aside from it sounds like 'saitan', kidding aside. HAHAHA. Wala din namang kayong maisuggest na iba e. Kaya yan na yan. Accept it. K. Whatever! A titan daw, according to google, is a great and powerful or influential person, especially in the context of some field of endeavor. It's something to deal with a strong personality. So 'yon. Atleast may idea na kayo. Hahahahaa! Enough with the details. I am more of being techie na. HAHAHAHA! Sarreh! ;p

Oh well! In as much as I want to make this entry sounded like more positively than the other way around, I just can't cause our (with my superfriends) torch parade experience was a big EPIC FAIL! (As in, all caps gyud!) Hahaa! Well, of course, we have different experience from the other students, but ours is uh--okaaay! Yess na lang! 

Wonder why?

First and foremost, I thought it was torch parade pero bakit wala kaming nahawakan na torch??? Aba e simpleng parade pala mangyayari e. Scratch the word 'torch' kung ganun. Hahaha. Sorry for my negative comments. Actually, yan lang naman negative comment ko for the event. The other things are caused by some fortuitous events and the people involved are our group. So, better not to elaborate what happened. Alam na nila yon. Moved on. (Yong totoo, tinatamad lang ako magtype. HAHAHA. ;p) Meganon! Hahaha! :"">>>

The Sigaw-kalye, CBAA was nailed as the 1st-runner-up for the
cheering competition! Yay! :))

The stage, parang may concert lang!

The fireworks display, na sobrang layo namin! Imagine nasa upper comcent, MISHKAs, kami
when  the fireworks were about to start. So, how can we run from there?
We're still in the peak of our dinner. It's okaaay  though!
The blame is on us naman.

Party-party under the rain! Oha!

To enlighten the negative side of the event, may magaganda namang nangyari e. At the end of the day, we have enjoyed especially nong party-party na and you'll bumped onto some of your classmates in high school and extending their greetings to you. It's heart-warming! So, fun fun fun! The thing here is we have felt that we are graduating, we belong to the batch! Hihi Good or bad. Positive or otherwise. We are present. We never missed the event. Teheeee! :))

Get well too soon, Baby!

Good Morning and Salaaam! :)

Time really has a way of passing by. I haven't noticed that today's already Friday. Masha Allah! May this day be blessed ahead of you. Anyhow, waking up early this morning with a very hopeful heart is the only thing I could hold on to, to put some light on my face. Praying still that all is well. Hearing those beautiful words of Allah was very soul uplifting, it gives me hope. Subhanallah!

Anyhow, my family is facing trials these days. I think it all started this month when our Bunso was got into hospital because her stomach was infected by some sort of bacteria. And after her recovery, I followed. I was sick for a week before my grad. I thought I couldn't march anymore because I was really too weak that time. My fever is on and off. Thank God, I have survived and still kicking.

But then I thought that was the end of our doom days. Here comes again, when my Ama was confined Sunday early morning because he has a high fever and  some disorders were found out by the doctor. No need to enumerate 'em cause it's way too depressing. Tss. I know he'll live longer. Yes, he will! In shaa Allah. And there comes a time again, in the middle of the night of Tuesday, my sister was rushed into hospital because she vomited blood. This has something to do with her lungs. And up to now, she's not yet home. I hope for her early and fast recovery. :'((

 How can I even sleep well every night, lying in my couch so safe and sound, when the rest of my family is having a hard time in hospital? It really breaks my heart! And I always fell-off into tears each time my mom called because I know in their hearts, they're trying to be emotionally strong. Tsksk. And because I am the 'ate' of this family, I am stuck here at home. Parenting my other siblings. Home is so gloomy, very sad! It's lacking of people I loved. And I can't dare to spend more a day in this house without them. Buhuu! Please come home soon. We miss you so much!

If you have might wonder, why am I so active in social networking because I am seeking for comfort aside from Allah the greatest. And thru it, I find solace. Ang hirap ng walang kausap dito sa bahay. Thanks to those internet friends who tried to listen and comfort me. Thanks for the concern. I have really appreciate it. There also unexpected people who tried to show their concern, and I feel overwhelmed. Thanks for being thoughtful though. God bless you all.

In the name of Allah, I know these are only trials that God has bestowed upon us to test our faith. He won't give such situations like these kung hindi namin makakaya. God is so amazing. He set plans in order. I always believe in the power of prayers that's why I'll leave everything unto Him. He's the most powerful of all.

So, here. I sincerely pray. Bismillah.

Ya Allah, I know you have mercy upon us. I know you loved us, your servants, and we love you back more than ourselves. You are the controller of everything. Everything lies upon you. And I sincerely ask to take care of my sister and may she get well soon. I hope this is not too much. I hope she's not into any ailments.  And I promise to myself when she gets back, I'll look upon to her. Ya Allah, when my family is in pain, I am also in pain. You are the only One who knows what I feel. Ya Allah, give my parents the strength to face all of these. And I hope they're heart wouldn't be weaken. Ya Allah, I hope everything would be fine. Allahumma Ameen! :))


"Those who believe and whose hearts find rest in the remembrance of God, for in the remembrance of God do hearts find rest ". 13:28 :)))

Goofing Around ;p

Talking about Vanity!
HAHAHA. Kami na!
Yours truly, Binx and Hata
@ jecos...

The Tribute Debits Edition

The last time I felt I belong to the graduating class of this year was during our grad pictorial in DSA, when one of their personnel were putting on the toga over me and he teased, "Woow, graduating na sad mo." I chuckled with my reply then I felt nervous. As I told to myself, 'Heto na talaga Anna, gagrad ka na talaga after 5 long years of journey in Accountancy.' Then I felt the same again when I received this invitation and it was so beautiful that I couldn't resist not to attend this special event. Of course, kami ang bida e. Hihi. And I wouldn't let this event passed without blogging it. because this is one of the highlights ever happened to me during my super seniority year. Tehee!

The Invitation

The day has come - March 26, a tribute for the district of Debits. (Chooos! Umahunger-games e.) All were stunningly dressed, beautiful as they are; the stage was dazzlingly decorated with those glittered lettering plus the HG logo, the most striking one; the food was deliciously nommm. Good job Balances (Sponsor of this event)! Perfect, it is! Siyempre, basta libre masarap. Hahahaa! Actually, the concept of the program is Hunger Games or something that has to do with black or gold.  And I guess, we have followed naman, diba? Teheee. >:-)))

At dahil earlybirds kami, capturing some pose muna while others are not yet around.

I can see from my classmate's faces how giddy they are whilst listening to the very idealistic and a romantic prophecy of the class. I was delighted with the idea on how am I going to be after 10 years or do I say on the year of 2022. According to the story, aside from being a CPA, I am also a Chef and a CMA as well. Chos lang. Oh, that was too fancy, fairytale-like story that I wish to be true. Somehow, I hope I could be that way, the most popular CPA slash Chef. Pabonus na yong CMA noh. Hahaa! 

If I could only financially support myself to pursue culinary arts a years from now then I will. Yes, I will! I want to explore the world of kitchen, experiment a new recipe and establish a bistro. Hahahaha. Ambisyosa much. Someday, I could cook the most delicious food for my family and friends, the best food they could ever taste. Nyahaaa! In God's time! And as how the story says, I'll be the cook for my precious couple friends' wedding ceremony. Ohmmoooo! Kiliiig aside. Harhar! Oh, how I love it to be real. Teheee. Pwede magfast forward or magtime travel to hold assurance? If only so. :''>

Di lalim muhilak sa stage. lol. first-timer! :p

Going with the flow of the program, akala ko e wala ng madrama part aside from the video clip na pinanood nila sa'min. Gonk. Ewan ko kung madrama ba yon sa iba, basta para sa'kin madrama yon. lol. Who is emotera now? :p (Points at myself.) K. Aynorrrayt! But hyea, as I was speaking seconds ago, there's this part of the event that made me mega over teary-eyed. Hahaa! Heto kasi yon, you're given three hearts and three circles to hand it to the persons you are thankful for (hearts) and sorry for (circles). I want to share about this but I guess it will take long and I don't want to be sounded like so emotional in this entry. Oh well, I'll make a separate post about this then. Hihi

As you seen from the picture above, I did cry! It's true, no drama! Ang panget ko lang. HAHAHA I never thought I would have the courage to speak in front of these people and shed those tears. Yikes! Thus, I love the feeling though, expressing how you love your friends and the whole gang on stage. Halos bulol bulol pa ako. Hahahaha! Awww. I've never been like this before. I've never been this vocal. Promise. So, that was a very relieving feeling! I know I have touched these folks' hearts with my words esp my superfriends. Chos! When you want to say something, say it while it's not yet too late. Oh diba? HAHA

My Superfriends <3

Of all those hundred photos taken, this one was the cutest. Nashock ang show. HAHAHA. Indeed, college life wouldn't have been this fun without these people. I so so love you guys a milli. I hope no one would tear us apart because you're one of the best friends I could ever have. :"""">   

Batch Debits and Balances

Of course, I wouldn't end up this entry without saying a bunch of thank yous to my juniors, Balances. Thank you for this meaningful night. Thank you for making us special. Salamat sa pagpapaiyak nyo sa'min ng bongga. Thank you for making us feel that we have mark a very good remarks in college. Thank you for the memories being your ates and kuyas. I hope we have really shared something to be treasured with you. Thank you for everything and all. Banzai Balances. Welcome to the last stage of your undergrad. Cherish it! May the odds be really in our favor. God-willing! :)))

Love, love, love

Annadear

Broken Wings

This song goes to someone special to me and you know who you are. And because you suddenly popped out in my mind tonight, I'm listening to it for the nth time. Namiss tuloy kita. Ayeee. :)))

Thank you for being such a friend to me

Oh I pray a friend for life

And have I ever told you how much you mean to me

Oh, you're everything to me

I'm thinking all the time

How to tell you what I feel

I'm contemplating phrases

I'm gazing at eternity

I am floating in serenity

And I am so lost for words

And I am so overwhelmed

Please don't go just yet

Can you stay a moment please

We can dance together

We can dance forever

Under your stars tonight

We'll live and breathe this dream

So close your eyes

but don't dream too deep

And please pass me some memories

And when I fall you're underneath

1000 broken hearts

Carried by 1000 broken wings

Hep hep hooooraaaay!

Oh yesssss!!!! Finally, it's over. No more hellish exams, the game is over. Freedom, embrace me now. Choos! Happy lungs. Hahaha! Awhile ago, we had our final pre-board exam in BLT, our last exam in college life. And asdfghkl, it was a tragic ending for us. Whoa! In as much as I want to rant about it, but I decided to keep it to myself na lang since it's already a part of history. And I have nothing to do about it. Hopefully, the results will be favorable for everybody. And oh please, no more removal exams. P1 and P2 is enough. We all want to graduate. >:-((( 

Up to now, I am not yet really feel relieved not until our final grades will be released. Tsss. However, I am very grateful that God has always been with me throughout this struggle I've been through. Alhamdulillah. He grant my prayers, I am saved in P2, the major-major subject I've been worrying lately. Just so I thought I won't make it when I had the very poor performance in my first pre-board. Like really, the worst ever. When Ate Brij, told us the good news yesterday, na walang makakaremoval sa grupo namin, we all screamed for joy. Rejoicing, it is. Praises be to Allah alone. Thank you. ^___^

On the other side of the story, I feel sad for those who failed to pass and have to surpass this another test they'll be going through. Nevertheless, as what Sir Sanny said in his FB status, "Either way, I believe they can! I know they really can... =))". Yesssu, he's definitely right! We will make it to the last. The 45 of us will march this coming April 12. In shaa Allah. Just keep the faith. We will becoming CPAs this october2012. Mark that word. Ang sarap lang mangarap. In God's time, it will come true. I pray so. Ameen. Alrytie, leggo! Usbaw, DEBITS! 

And oops, tonight was our senior's ball but we chose to missed it. Aw. Bawi-bawi na lang sa tribute. Hahaa!

Subtle

A love that is mystery

Emotionless, intangible

It haunts me.

Actions seem to loud

No words spoken

Yet cared much.

Reading your heart

Seeking to whom it beats

Hoping it was me.

A vague feeling within

Filled with hesitation

Inexpressive.

Or maybe I was wrong

A love that can't be mine

Fixed and bruised.

BURN (echos cover with binxxoxo)

One of those crazy things we did last summer with Superfriends. HAHA. Heto yong isa sa mga trips namin during our OJT days. Pagbigyan nyo na po ang aming mga kabaliwan. Waleey lang talga magawa. Sarreh naman! And btw, I miss this! And ligid po sa inyong kaalaman, sa SM po yan, sa may Quantium section. Parang may gig lang e noh? HAHA :p Akalain nyo yon kinaya yon ng guts namin. Hahahaha! 

Happy Birthday CBAA!

Our dear College of Business Administration is celebrating it's 49th foundation day last February 23, 2012. Sad to say, this will be our last college foundation day experience in undergrad. And I feel sorry though for I was not able to give my full participation in the said college activities because we've been busy in our major subjects. And we did also our application for grad. Alhamdulillah. Mission Accomplished. I missed a lot during that day especially the inspiring speech of Sir Moj. Tss. It's okay. Sighs. 

But hey! We were looking forward to the day that we will also celebrate for the same reason but not as students anymore but an alumni instead. And by that time, our names are tailed with those three letters 'CPA'. In shaa Allah. :)

The Parade!

'te sal, Pew2, XY, Aye, Ako and Hata

Jam, Bhong, Sief, Beyb and Odjie

Vincent, Aye, Jeeroach, Ranee, Arkhe & Jaymon

With the new CPAs

And of course! The best part of the day was, when the faculties and
the students were about to let go of the balloons!


Indeed, HAPPY CBAA!  ☺   

'til we meet again

One of the best moments had happened during our last convention in Camiguin was reuniting with my OJT mates again. I could only get to see them at times like this.  It's sad though because that is our last convention experience in RFJPIA. We will never gather events like this anymore. >_<

I wonder when will be the time our roads will cross again. Maybe, we will meet at some future time when we're already become a CPA. Or may be then at the review center. We never know. Hihi. 

Ken, Claui, Me, Yong and Frias

There, meet my Bossy!

He's one of my closest friends I gain from my OJT experience. Our PICPA days where it all begins, the bossy-yaya relationship. I'm glad though that up to now, we still able to keep that friendship. I couldn't thank God enough for having a friend like him. And if i'll tell you things about him, it would take me a thousand years to finish it. This space isn't enough. Hahaha! He's nostalgic. Period. :)

What's inside? A scarf!

A post-dated birthday gift from him. Hahaa! I was really surprised na scarf ang laman nyan. Sobrang natouch lang ako sa thought na he give me a scarf which signifies a lot to me. Y'know a scarf symbolizes for who I am as a Muslim lady. And what more captivates me is knowing that he accept me for who I am despite our religion differences. Thank you really. Amazing people like him are worth keeping. 

Dear Bossy, Just so you know you mean a lot to me. ♥

Our Roads are Gonna Cross Again

ONE

As what my mom had promised to me, she pay me of having an out-of-town short vacation with her. It’s already eleven thirty noon. The plane circled the airport twice and I felt the smooth dropping begin. The wheels bumped ground. The engines roared. As I look out the window, the terminal was just below and the temperature outside is far different from the chilliness I felt inside the plane. My mom began to handed down our bags as well as me stirred from excitement.

When the line of passengers began to move, we walked down to the aisle and out into the chute that led to terminal. Nate, a third degree cousin of mine, will meet us on the airport. As we emerged into the terminal, we looked for him in the crowd at the gate. My mom saw him and she waved at him. He began sidling his way towards us and just like the sort of thing most people do to arriving travelers, he kissed and embraced my mom. I only glance at him warily and he said “Hey Stella, nice to see you again”. He carried our bags heading to the car. We walked the short distance to the car.

We’re on our way to Nate’s residence to where we are going to spend the rest of our stay here in Manila. So, as I was saying to myself earlier right after we laid down to the plane, I’m going to have a good stay in here. Then again, welcome to the nostalgic city.

We drove the few miles in silence, listening to the old songs had been playing in the radio. I just stare outside the window and gazing every view on the road, the buildings and the like. It took almost 2 hours of arriving home yet I haven’t feel any starvation may be because of the warm pleasure I felt. 

We’re only a few of remaining blocks away. Tita Lily, Nate’s mom, meet us halfway from the gate. She held out her arms in welcome and hugged me, pressing her face against mine. She told us tenderly “Welcome home!”. 

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This is something I wrote a year ago and until now I haven't finish it. lol. I almost forgot how the plot is going to be like. Poor me! Oh well, I'll save it here just so in case my nerves want to make some add-ups to this fiction-attempts of mine. Hahaa!

My Heart Skips A Beat

This season of love is about to end. How was yours? Was it happily in love, desperately broken, getting complicated, staying single or let me insert the new so-called relationship status 'Unofficially yours to someone'? Tehee. For sure, there were many who could relate to the last status I am referring to because even me can relate though. Admit it, I know right. Uh-huh! Eliminate the word M.U., laos na yan e 'Malabong Ugnayan' puwede pa siguro. Hahaa! Unofficially yours na daw ngayon. Chos lang.

Oh well, this is not the main issue that I'm trying to blab about not even the movie of John Lloyd and Angel. I haven't watch it yet. Harhar. K. Let me have this night to share some tidbits of my crazy-little-thing-called-love stories. Tsaar! Cause tomorrow I might drop out my heart from this illusion. lol. 

I have started this month with love and love and love. Never-ending love. lol. I'm receiving too much love from my family and friends. What's more funnier is when you are being treated special by an unexpected person who came to be someone special to you also. Haaaar! So, let me start this with a text message from my lola, it says:

 'Slm 2 u. OLE, KMSTk jan camign. Pumunta ako bhy nu monday wl kau ni BB, AKALA mO nakakalimutan ko kau. D2 me Byang fyn nshaALLAH. Lv u.'. 

She thought I'm still at Camiguin that time. Uhm,that was the first very heart-warming sweet message I ever received during the first day of the month. Wala lang, that was the first time kasi that my Ina tell me those words 'I LOVE YOU' kahit shortcut ang pagkakasabi, kinulang man ng letter 'u', it still means a lot. Hahaha! WINNER! :"">>>

And then, Wedenesday noon, I wake up from a short nap, someone's left me a message in my inbox. Another awe-inspiring message. Teheee! 

He: It's nice to start this month reading a letter from someone so special to me. It feels like heaven reading those sweet, comforting words! Thank you so much to my _____ for the love, care and friendship! You will always be in my heart. :)

Awww. After reading, I was like can I jump my heart out for joy now? Hahaa! Sobrang natouch lang ako sa sinabi niya. Plus, can I quote and quote those words 'someone SO special to me'. Oh! That's too much. That overwhelming feeling when you are special to someone special. Pamahaw Espesyal ang show! :p My heart skips a beat then. Har har har.

By the way, I give him a letter. A letter that he requested to me. Request granted naman. HAHAHA. I was a bit too shy to give it to him. Mushy words are flowing which is so not me. Hahaa! For the record, he's the only man so far na nabigyan ko ng letter. As in. To my surprise, he actually took a photo of it. Nakita ko lang sa album niya. HAHA. Thanks to you. <I hope you know not about this blog.>

"Love and Respect, flower on the same branch."

There's reason behind those words which I can't barely share. :p

On the Day of Hearts, I almost forgot that on 14th it's Valentines day not until he greet me the night before.  He did greet me again early morning. Ayeee. Yeeees, cheese balls start pouring over my head again. Hahaha! Little things that make you special, it's crazy! HAHAHA. But hey, I don't celebrate heart's day. I just want to cherish the feeling that I am remembered during that day. Weeeh. And I might sing as well this short line, "I'm trying hard not to resist a joy. My heart skips a bit." hahaha!

Anyhoo, beyond those actions, I don't want to expect anything from him although he did a lot of things that really makes me feel I'm loved. Cause If I expect, I just might invite disappointments in which in the end that's too hard to handle. So, better not to. I just want to keep and enjoy what we have right now. I'm happy knowing that I occupy some space in his heart. May it be small or big. I don't bother so long as he do. So long as we're special friends, that will always matter. Nothing more. 

He give me a purse with a 5-peso coin inside on it. I asked him, why did he left such. He said, when you give a purse or wallet to someone, you should put any value in it. Aww. Rest assured, I'll keep it the way he have value me. Tsaaar! :))   

Somehow, I thank him for making my heart skipped a beat! At least, in a very odd way, pinapakilig niya ako. lol

I MISS YOU.