Broken Love Tale

Good morning Sunday! I should have been in school today for a quiz but due to proctor's unavailability, quiz  have to be postponed. Cheers for that. So, here I am sitting in front of my lappy and will try to brag about something. Actually, I was planning to write about it since Friday night but then laziness strikes me always. Hahaa! I have to grab this chance to express or rant whatsoever. K. Enough for blah-blas. I'll start.

Anyhow, this isn't about me, it's someone else's love story. To be more specific, it's my Kuya. I know I don't have the right to share my brotha's own sentiments nor do I have any idea what are they going through. Yet, at some point, it's like I felt the urge to share some stories behind what I've known. Feeling affected ako e. Sarreh kuya, di mo naman mababasa 'to e! :p 

On a Friday noon, Mamang called me  while I'm in the middle of a quiz in MAS. I answered the call and asked her, 'why mom?' She asked, 'where are you now?' 'I'm at school nag-quiz ko, why man?', I replied. She added, 'I have to ask something sana'. And I curiously asked, 'ano yon? Itanong mo na.' Akala ko e kung anong emergency ang itatawag nya, yon pala e she'll just going to asked me the complete name of my Kuya's love of his life kasi nga may tumawag daw sa kanya na nakita nya yong name nong girl sa isang streamer for an engagement or the so called 'Dialaga'. I turned into the state of shock before I responded and absorbed everything what mom had relayed to me. And she asked again, 'Wala na ba sila? Bakit ganun?' Oh mom! I really don't know what to say for I really don't know. Tss. 

And at the same time, nashock ako kay mudra, I have come to learn that mom's is open-minded when it comes to that kind of issues so is with my father kasi pagdating na pagdating ko sa bahay e binalita din nya sa'kin. Siya mismo e nabasa yong streamer which is displayed somewhere in Banggolo. Now I know. Hahaa! By that way, that only means na affected din pala sila. It's only an implication na tanggap ni parents yong girl for my brother but then malalaman na lang namin na ikakasal na pala siya sa iba. Yes, engagement pa lang yon, pero parang ganun na din kasi yon e. Grabe lang, I can see in my parents' faces how sad they are for my brother. We are preoccupied with so many why's, like for real? Totohanan talaga? No joke? Sighs. 

And now, I wonder how does he feel about it. The question is, does he already know? Tsk. That moment when I wanted to ask him all those questions but I lose the courage to do so. It's as if something holds me from asking for I and kuya, we're not that really open when it comes to our love stories. It's awkward, I know right. So, I just ended up stalking his Facebook account only to found out that he already know. I guess. Based on his profile pic which is a very-sad-with-heavy-tears emoticon, I could really say that he's damn broken-hearted man as of this moment. I could only imagine that he's heart is falling into pieces right now. Oh, am I too exag? Hihi. Ang lungkot-lungkot lang. If only I could give him some sort of comfort, I will.  

Saturday morning, Mamang was trying to comfort him over phone calls. Then, kuya just shared that he already knew, the girl had already informed him since nong namanhikan yong guy. And mom's keep on interrogating, like bakit daw sya pumayag? Hindi ka ba nya mahintay? And so on and so fort. Sabi naman ni kuya, 'yon daw ang choice ng parents nya tsaka anong gagawin ko e wala pa kong work para mamanhikan?' Tssk. Naaaah, what more else is his choice, to accept and bear the pain??? Aww. Pero diba kung mahal mo naman ang isang tao you would fight for him. Pero waleey e. The girl never breaks her silence. Hinayaan na niya ang parents nya magdecide for her life. Tsss. I can't blame her then, I believe she has the reasons to. As what my father says, 'Naaah, andamanaya! Naba koris. Di pakanayaw so girl.' (Sorry to tell but it isn't their fate and the girl can't wait). Sana ganun lang kadaling tanggapin yon noh? Ugh.

There's also one thing I found out in his wall. He shared a link on which I think it goes for the girl. So, I might just posted the lyrics and the link as well for you to know. Tehee! Here's save those words by lil Eddie.

You look beautiful in white
Standing there in front of your friends and all your family
And the man beside you 'bout to say 'I do"
God wish that man was me


I can't keep silent any longer
I gotta speak now or forever hold my peace

I only got few short seconds to make you change your mind
So baby listen to my plea


If you say those words, then you don't love me
If you tell him you do, I'll just turn around and leave
But you still haven't said it
And I'm here not to let it
I crashed, uninvited call me crazy
If you say those words, then I'll just throw up my hands
If you go through with it, then he's the better man
But you still haven't said it
And I'm here not to let it
My baby I'm beggin' please... Save those words for me


I finally came around to my senses
I've drove all night and here I am right now
With all these angry faces staring
At this desperate look I'm wearing
Calling out your name and interrupting vows

Ouch! The song bites. Ramdam na ramdam na siguro nya yong kanta. As far as I know, they've been together for five years. Shets! Ang tagal na noh? It would have been acceptable pa sana if they have to fall apart because they fall out of love. But, in this case, hindi eh. What hurts the most is they can't be because they're not destined to be. After a long years of relationship, hindi pala kayo ang ending? Awww. Bitter! Sometimes, fate is playful. It's sad though especially when you thought it will last when in the end it would end up nowhere. Nakakapanghinayang lang din kasi yong pinagsamahan nyo. I mean, sa panahon ngayon, bihira lang yong relationships na nagtatagal. At ang masaklap pa dito, kung sino pa yong nagmamahal ng tunay e yon pa ang hindi tinadhana. Alam mo yong halos kalahati na ng buhay mo e binuhos mo na sa kanya tapos hahantong lang din pala sa wala. Hahay. Tss. Paano na lang yon pag nakita kayo in the future at maalala nyo yong mga panahong naging kayo, nyay, again AWKWARD! Oh well. 

It's heartbreaking, right?  Who says, it doesn't? For those who aren't in love yet, they might say that's too dumb unreasonable to be fooled and sicked of love. But hey, it's not. Love has no boundaries. When you're in pain, it is something that can't be cured over medicines. It takes time to heal those wounds and move on. And yet, life goes on. It doesn't have to end there. We never know, someone's waiting out there, it's just not yet the right time.

L-R: Ako, Jaymon, Sir Jha, Hata and Binx.

This photo was taken yesterday while we having our break or shall I call it 'recess'? XD Sir Jha approached us to took a photo with him. Hihi. I love how he tagged us in his FB account with the caption of "With the future CPAs. ^__^" Yes, we are. In shaa Allah. CPA to be. Months to go. And counting. 

Seriously, I'm having a hard time dealing with this 'effin school tasks. Sleep deprived. Bombarded with everyday quizzes. Hectic schedule. Unpredictable instructors. Sssshhh.  A day is always a struggle to me since this last semester has started. Pheeew. And I hope I can get through everything of this. In shaa Allah. Anyhow, I am still feel blessed despite everything. Alhamdulillah. Let's make this a blast! Yeeeee! 

Leennaeus @ Maze Park

Supposedly, we're planning for a year-end party but then it turned out to be a new year's party instead. Last January 8, 2012,  my high school classmates went to the beautiful place of Maze Park somewhere in Iligan City and spend some quality time together.  Sad to say, only few who were able to come like there were only eleven of us namely Jam, Maei-mei, Sars (Bae), Matter, Sinan, Naif, Bakry, Jhun, Ar-ar, Beyb, and of course me, myself and I. But hey, the show must go on, we have to amuse ourselves. Hahaa! And yes, it was fun! Happiness, happiness, happiness...

Of course, precious moment like this won't be complete without the picture taking part. Hahaa! So, here are some of them:

So, kamusta naman ang uhaw sa pool? Hoho! Actually, I planned not to swim that time where in fact I haven't brought any bathing suits with me. With the thought of I can't be tamed by the pool, it's an epic failed! Good thing, jam have brought some extra clothes and yay, I'm saved. Hahaa! Oops, for the first time I have dive myself into 6.5 feet. Woooh! Sareeeeeh, I know I'm no swimmer! Loser. Can somebody of you will teach me how? Hahaa! :p 

By the way, each time I see a pool, it reminds me someone, that was the first and last time I did saw him swimming. And I was amazingly surprised how good swimmer he is. Superb. Pwede siya na lang magturo sa'kin? Tsss.

And because Matter got the latest new iPhone4S, we tried Instagram. So, hello there! Meet Sars, I called her Bae. After a long years, kidding aside, nagkita na din kami. Hahaa!

Maze Park is a beautiful place in the city for hang-outs with friends. This is the second time around I visited the place. It really has something to offer, aside from the big pools, it also have some beautiful places to spot on. Park nga talaga sya as what the resort's name says. It could be avail also at a very affordable rate and a very relaxing place indeed. Hahaa! (The resort should pay me for advertisement charges. lol)

Say whoooot?? 

Matter also made a short video during our outing. Haha. Watch it here. This is so funny. At talagang may diving competition pa talaga eh noh, among us girls and boys. Suuupeer like it! Wee. :">

I love my high school barkada. It's amazing how even if we've changed a lot of ways, we're still the same people when we're together. I'm happy to be reunited with my High School friends again. Another moment to be deposited on my memory bank. Teheee. ☺

Under the rain,
we walk together.
You stare at me,
makes me feel like I'm melting.
You whisper those words,
makes me scream from joy.
My heart beats so fast,
too hard to escape...

If only you knew

If only you knew how thankful I am having you around.
If only you knew how much you mean to me.
If only you knew how you made me smile for no reason.
If only you knew that I also care like you did.
If only you knew that I'm the happiest person when you're there.
If only you knew that I've been wanting to tell how I feel about you.
But if you already know, I want you to know that's true.