Broken Love Tale

Good morning Sunday! I should have been in school today for a quiz but due to proctor's unavailability, quiz  have to be postponed. Cheers for that. So, here I am sitting in front of my lappy and will try to brag about something. Actually, I was planning to write about it since Friday night but then laziness strikes me always. Hahaa! I have to grab this chance to express or rant whatsoever. K. Enough for blah-blas. I'll start.

Anyhow, this isn't about me, it's someone else's love story. To be more specific, it's my Kuya. I know I don't have the right to share my brotha's own sentiments nor do I have any idea what are they going through. Yet, at some point, it's like I felt the urge to share some stories behind what I've known. Feeling affected ako e. Sarreh kuya, di mo naman mababasa 'to e! :p 

On a Friday noon, Mamang called me  while I'm in the middle of a quiz in MAS. I answered the call and asked her, 'why mom?' She asked, 'where are you now?' 'I'm at school nag-quiz ko, why man?', I replied. She added, 'I have to ask something sana'. And I curiously asked, 'ano yon? Itanong mo na.' Akala ko e kung anong emergency ang itatawag nya, yon pala e she'll just going to asked me the complete name of my Kuya's love of his life kasi nga may tumawag daw sa kanya na nakita nya yong name nong girl sa isang streamer for an engagement or the so called 'Dialaga'. I turned into the state of shock before I responded and absorbed everything what mom had relayed to me. And she asked again, 'Wala na ba sila? Bakit ganun?' Oh mom! I really don't know what to say for I really don't know. Tss. 

And at the same time, nashock ako kay mudra, I have come to learn that mom's is open-minded when it comes to that kind of issues so is with my father kasi pagdating na pagdating ko sa bahay e binalita din nya sa'kin. Siya mismo e nabasa yong streamer which is displayed somewhere in Banggolo. Now I know. Hahaa! By that way, that only means na affected din pala sila. It's only an implication na tanggap ni parents yong girl for my brother but then malalaman na lang namin na ikakasal na pala siya sa iba. Yes, engagement pa lang yon, pero parang ganun na din kasi yon e. Grabe lang, I can see in my parents' faces how sad they are for my brother. We are preoccupied with so many why's, like for real? Totohanan talaga? No joke? Sighs. 

And now, I wonder how does he feel about it. The question is, does he already know? Tsk. That moment when I wanted to ask him all those questions but I lose the courage to do so. It's as if something holds me from asking for I and kuya, we're not that really open when it comes to our love stories. It's awkward, I know right. So, I just ended up stalking his Facebook account only to found out that he already know. I guess. Based on his profile pic which is a very-sad-with-heavy-tears emoticon, I could really say that he's damn broken-hearted man as of this moment. I could only imagine that he's heart is falling into pieces right now. Oh, am I too exag? Hihi. Ang lungkot-lungkot lang. If only I could give him some sort of comfort, I will.  

Saturday morning, Mamang was trying to comfort him over phone calls. Then, kuya just shared that he already knew, the girl had already informed him since nong namanhikan yong guy. And mom's keep on interrogating, like bakit daw sya pumayag? Hindi ka ba nya mahintay? And so on and so fort. Sabi naman ni kuya, 'yon daw ang choice ng parents nya tsaka anong gagawin ko e wala pa kong work para mamanhikan?' Tssk. Naaaah, what more else is his choice, to accept and bear the pain??? Aww. Pero diba kung mahal mo naman ang isang tao you would fight for him. Pero waleey e. The girl never breaks her silence. Hinayaan na niya ang parents nya magdecide for her life. Tsss. I can't blame her then, I believe she has the reasons to. As what my father says, 'Naaah, andamanaya! Naba koris. Di pakanayaw so girl.' (Sorry to tell but it isn't their fate and the girl can't wait). Sana ganun lang kadaling tanggapin yon noh? Ugh.

There's also one thing I found out in his wall. He shared a link on which I think it goes for the girl. So, I might just posted the lyrics and the link as well for you to know. Tehee! Here's save those words by lil Eddie.

You look beautiful in white
Standing there in front of your friends and all your family
And the man beside you 'bout to say 'I do"
God wish that man was me


I can't keep silent any longer
I gotta speak now or forever hold my peace

I only got few short seconds to make you change your mind
So baby listen to my plea


If you say those words, then you don't love me
If you tell him you do, I'll just turn around and leave
But you still haven't said it
And I'm here not to let it
I crashed, uninvited call me crazy
If you say those words, then I'll just throw up my hands
If you go through with it, then he's the better man
But you still haven't said it
And I'm here not to let it
My baby I'm beggin' please... Save those words for me


I finally came around to my senses
I've drove all night and here I am right now
With all these angry faces staring
At this desperate look I'm wearing
Calling out your name and interrupting vows

Ouch! The song bites. Ramdam na ramdam na siguro nya yong kanta. As far as I know, they've been together for five years. Shets! Ang tagal na noh? It would have been acceptable pa sana if they have to fall apart because they fall out of love. But, in this case, hindi eh. What hurts the most is they can't be because they're not destined to be. After a long years of relationship, hindi pala kayo ang ending? Awww. Bitter! Sometimes, fate is playful. It's sad though especially when you thought it will last when in the end it would end up nowhere. Nakakapanghinayang lang din kasi yong pinagsamahan nyo. I mean, sa panahon ngayon, bihira lang yong relationships na nagtatagal. At ang masaklap pa dito, kung sino pa yong nagmamahal ng tunay e yon pa ang hindi tinadhana. Alam mo yong halos kalahati na ng buhay mo e binuhos mo na sa kanya tapos hahantong lang din pala sa wala. Hahay. Tss. Paano na lang yon pag nakita kayo in the future at maalala nyo yong mga panahong naging kayo, nyay, again AWKWARD! Oh well. 

It's heartbreaking, right?  Who says, it doesn't? For those who aren't in love yet, they might say that's too dumb unreasonable to be fooled and sicked of love. But hey, it's not. Love has no boundaries. When you're in pain, it is something that can't be cured over medicines. It takes time to heal those wounds and move on. And yet, life goes on. It doesn't have to end there. We never know, someone's waiting out there, it's just not yet the right time.