Next to You

"Maybe we're friends, maybe we're more, maybe it's just my imagination..."

Last night, I forgot to turn off my player and then I wake up from a very short nap hearing this line and I was like augh! THIS! It's funny how a certain song could describe how do you feel at once. It's funny how it drives your mind to think of those things that shouldn't be ponder on. It's funny how it tells you that you're not alone and that there's someone out there sharing the same sentiments with you. And what's more funnier, is on how it pushes me to write something tonight. But I warn you, it's nonsense! You may now close your tab or you may just bear with me if you want! LOL

Uhmmmm! Are you up for another drama? Just tonight. Let me express some of my thoughts that is running on my mind right now. I've always thought of it many times though I have tried setting it aside and trash them away but it keeps on flashing back especially when I'm alone. Just so I want to put them into words so I could release myself from doubts or whatsoever. Or perhaps, it may lessen the pain in my chest.

Oops! Pain? Did I just say that?

It's too awkward when somebody will ask me "how's us is going?". I don't even know how to react when my friends used to tease me over him. I admit most of the time kinikilig ako siyempre crush ko yon e. Lame! How to respond when there's nothing going around with us. Or maybe I should answer them with 'maybe we're friends, maybe we're more or maybe it's just my imagination'. I don't want to be stuck at this so called 'friend zone' but I guess I'm almost there. *sobs* :''/

Sometimes he's too sweet that it makes me go crazy all over again. Sometimes he's too snob that it pisses me off. But most of the time he's too idle that I don't feel his presence anymore. Until I get used to this kind of cycle. When he's around, I'm happy. When he's not, K! Fine. HAHAHA! Maybe I expect a lot from him on which I should not. I'm not hurting anyway, just a little pain. Na-immune na siguro. If you only know how much I want to end this mystery.Weeeh!

I've been asking myself are we really special for each other? Or was it just me having special feelings over him? Then, I asked a friend last night, and to his point of view, he said, yes! Sighs! There are times naman talaga that he attempts to confess his feelings for me but I only replied him with a joke. It's not that I don't like it, but NO! I have a very deep reasons. Nevertheless, rest assured to him that I'll be right here, next to you.  Tehee! However, no matter how we like it to be more than what we are now, we can't never be. As in, NEVER! And that is the sad thing about love. So, if I were you, believe in what GOD's plan for you. He's still drafting the best love story you could ever have. Never rush into love. They will come into perfect timing. <^.^>

"It's hard to run from a feeling that haunts you every now and then. It is painful to tell your heart that you don't need it, you keep on pretending that you are better to be alone when in fact you feel so empty. But why take chances if you see no hope? Why try if there's nothing to win? For sometimes it pays to wait...never hurry! Let infatuation die in a natural death... and give birth to a true love when it's time."

Now, I'm trying to escape this misery, maybe it was just a wishful thinking. Hihi. Anyhoos, my drama is over! You can breathe now! And forget about this. I hope I didn't annoyed you or what. Tss.