Growing through this adolescense stage of my life, there are three realizations that I eventually learn:

1. To deal with SOLITUDE most of the time. True that nothing's constant in this world except change not your high school bestfriend nor your college super buddy. We don't have this constant someone to be with all the time unless of course when you have already met your partner in life. In my case, I am still waiting not searching. Yes, I know what you're thinking, I have entertained the idea of settling down too thus I don't hold any control of it, so, I'm handing it to the Most Authorized person to take charge of it. Cross the bridge when you get there, maybe. Everybody gets busy, everyone's also trying to fill the box that awaits them while I am making my own too. So, as I was saying, I have so much of solitude. There are times that I want to yell out loud because I can't no longer handle things alone. But, that is reality, even in death, you are alone. So, deal with it then. 

2. The higher your position in life, the bigger your responsibilities. Life's moving. Long before, my worries were about getting good grades and the likes. Hence, today, my life is not limited only to my family and friends but to the extent of my country, politics, humanity and everything in between. They all have become my concerns. Since I started working, involvement at many things begin too. Even if you don't like to go out of your comfort zone, circumstances are pushing you to. There were lots of desperate experience I didn't saw coming. But, glory be to Him, He never left me alone with my everyday battle. I complaint a lot of times though, but at the end of the day, it's only prayers I needed. That is why we have to geared ourselves with so much prayers. Indeed, He will never decree a thing that is beyond your capacity. And yet, sometimes it made me wonder, He must be thinking I'm a superwoman to face such hard things. Haha. Kidding aside. 

3. The way you see things before will no longer be the same today. I must say I have changed a lot including my perceptions. What you are today is a result of the past, a perpetual shaping of one's experiences. With the kind of environment and workplace I have now, most of the people I am engaged with are older than me, mostly are parents and grands. So, most of my insights were affected by the wisdom of them people. I felt like I think old too at times. Or in other words, life isn't just about play or having good times, you have to go with it seriously. Perhaps, that is the essence of growing is all about. So, be it.